So I'm sitting here in the library about to loose my mind. I hate that my laptop died and my parents aren't going to buy a new one unless I am in school. It's practical I know but man it sucks not having a computer. Luckily I have a blackberry and I have some internet access. But it is not the same.
I am so sick of school. I don't want to be here. I want to be home. I feel like a failure. I am embarassed that I got to where I am. I am going to fail 3 classes. It's too late, there's nothing I can do, I can't even drop the classes. But I have to hang in and pass my two classes. The beacons of hope that will save me from academic probation. Caring is exhausting. I'm tired I don't want to anymore.
I am tired of people assuming that I am some good, perfect person. That I am a genius with straight A's and no problems, other than being occasionally annoying. I am a normal person with FLAWS! I am not a doll. I make mistakes, I screw up all the time. I have a swearing problem. I hate feeling like people expect me to be a perfect person, when I am nothing close to that!
I'm sorry you had to read this but I just really needed to say what's been on my mind. I feel better now.
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